Today has been a very bad day and that is quite a state of affairs to be saying at close to only 2.30pm in the afternoon! I am emotionally and physically exhausted. I have lots of things to do, to sort and just don’t know where to start. I’ll start something and then I am overcome with sadness and can’t move or I am in auto pilot just coasting and not really achieving anything. Now this is quite normal I have found but there are some days that are just that little bit worse than the rest. Don’t get me wrong most of my days now are a whole lot better than they have been over the past few years but still, come on, I just need a bit of a break.
Some of you may be sat reading and thinking, why don’t you just stop whinging and get on with it, stop feeling sad, stop thinking about it, just …., just ….., just that. If only it was JUST that simple. Believe me I have tried everything. I know what works for me and I know what definitely doesn’t. Sometimes however the darkness just takes over and it is far too powerful for my weak worn down soul.
I moved house at the weekend, which is stressful enough for anyone….for me this process was deeply saddening, cathartic, tiring, stressful, like therapy, terribly agonising, made me angrier than I wish to feel and it is only a few days later now that I realise how hard and difficult the whole process was and what a toll it has taken on me and the considerable effect this has had on my family.
You see my whole world has been flipped upside down and becoming even more terrifyingly unrecognisable to me than anyone could ever imagine, it is scary and it has been debilitating at points but I have no choice but to keep on going, keeping moving forwards.
Amie Alissa Watson is the founder, writer and creator of ‘In pursuit of life’ blog and podcast. Through the educational slow fashion brand Amie Alissa Design we explore living a more sustainable, ethical, eco & thoughtful life and discover ways to look after the mind. We explore and strive to lead a healthier, happier more holistic way of life. Join me on my quest for all things eco, let’s continue to strip back our lives and tread more lightly on the planet with a healthy heart and mind. Let’s manifest our lives together as one and create the vision, the dreams for a greener slower better world.
Fashion Designer, fashion and textiles lecturer, eco advocate, eco activist, founder of eco businesses Amie Alissa Design, The Refill Shed, Eco Courses plus climate action group YHCAG Yorkshire & Humber Climate Action Group
An ethically minded and empowered individual with a drive to meeting sustainable needs locally. Running a design business serving the community. As a family we strive to recycle and do our bit whilst supporting charity, conservation. We hope to educate others and work towards improving local infrastructure.